Upsets

Again, I am slacking. Between work, 2 kids, and life, I start forgetting about this place.

I had to miss 3 days of work due to a stomach bug or food poisoning.

Since then, I still have been unable to accomplish a 40 hour work week. A serious downer.

There have been major upsets dealing with the ex and his girlfriend. At times they irritate me more than words could ever express.

We've been trying to find a place to rent with no luck. I spoke with a lender and I qualify for the FHA loan but hubs has debts he needs to pay off. Until then, we are unable to purchase a home but we're trying to find out more information about mobile homes.

Another development since the last entry was that I have a 2nd job. I will be working at home when able or when I have a sitter. I will be transcribing voice mails. I am unsure about the pay but it's a 2nd job and right now anything is helpful.

Slacking Yet Busy

I've been slacking, I know. I've also been super busy.

Before I forget, last night Baby T woke up an hour after putting him in bed. I got up, changed his diaper and put him back in bed. He, of course, cried and whimpered. I gave him a hug and laid him back down. He cried and whimpered. I gave him another hug and he cried some more. Not 30-40 minutes later, he was back asleep for almost 7 hours. YAY.

On another note, I'm stressing. I went to pay per piece at work and because I'm still learning, my average is very low. Today was the only day I got near $100 for the day. I would be happy for now to get $80 a day because that is still about $10/hr.

Also between car payments, car insurace and other bills - along with hubs spending on random stuff - I feel we will never move out. I am 30 ---- I NEED my own place. WE need our own place.

Hubs interviewed yesterday for the assistant manager position at the Denton location. He has a 2nd interview tomorrow plus they are running his background. Praying he gets it since it would be a pay raise and we NEED it.


Until next time.......

One Step Forward - Two Steps Back

What an exciting afternoon it was!

I wasn't even in the door after work when hubs told me that our dog's foot was bleeding. Having had worked at a vet's office in the past, I tried to clean it and get the bleeding to stop. The bleeding did stop but started again so to the vet we went. 2 hours later and almost $100 take out of the account, the dog is fine. She ripped the webbing between her toes but they were able to put surgical glue to fix it.

They wanted to give her a 2 week antibiotic but that would have costed us another $200 so we were able to to get a week supply of antibiotic pills for MUCH cheaper between online coupons and being first time patients.

One step forward ---- two steps back.

Today is the Day

Wow, where did 2013 go? I really need to update this blog more often!

Today while hubs was off work, we went to Grapevine Sea Life Aquarium to meet the Octonauts. Unfortunately, we were only able to meet Captain Barnacles and not Kwazii but it was still a fun day. Also we bought Baby T a backpack leash but really didn't use it much due to the foot traffic. Also, Baby T thought he had free rein of the aquarium but didn't realize he had a "leash" attached to him.

Later in the day, we went to the park. Baby T is now asleep in his crib and I wish he would stay there all night. At 13 months old, he is still waking up in the middle of the night.

Because he is in bed - asleep - I am going to go to bed as well.

Until tomorrow......

More Elf On the Shelf Fun

Here are more photos that documented the fun we have had with Bernard this holiday season.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Elf On The Shelf Mischeifs And Fun

This year, we decided to do the Elf On The Shelf Tradition for our family. Our youngest is too young to understand but our 7 year old understands the concept and it is fun for the entire family.

We are 8 days away from Christmas so here are the photos that have documented our elf Bernard's journey this holiday season.

 

 

 

 

 

 

More Photos To Come! Keep an eye out for more Elf On the Shelf fun!

How Will You Be Remembered?

This evening, I was asked by my ex-husband how I felt about him taking our son (only 7 years old) and moving to another state. This is all because he was offered a better position and better pay by his company that, he says, he can pretty much retire on. How do I feel? I feel like vomiting. I feel like crying. I feel like hitting something. I feel like I have officially lost any appetite I ever had for the rest of my life. I feel like a terrible mother. That is how I feel.
After going through the motions and going through the divorce decree to see exactly what it says about him moving our child out of state, I have come to think how will my son remember me. He won't see me every Thursday, or ever other weekend, every holiday, etc. If I am lucky, I will see him one month out of the year and that will be during the summer. My ex-husband states he will fly me out one weekend out of a month so I can see my son and then of course I have the summer.....but even still that isn't much time. I barely get any time as it is.
The last few weeks, my son has been misbehaving, he has been talking back, being EXTREMELY picky on what he eats saying he doesn't like something even though we know he likes it and he hasn't been listening. I have been giving him the cold shoulder at times, I have been letting my husband do some disciplining (if it is their issue, they need to work it out...I will not step in the middle), and I have been cutting back on video games and tv a lot. How will he remember me? Will he remember me as that?
Last night, we were watching tv and when I got up to change the baby's diaper, he, out of nowhere, stated that he no longer wanted to be here and wanted to go back to his daddy's. That really hurt. He didn't understand how bad that hurt. If we were not iced in from this Texas Winter Storm, I am sure the ex would have been here picking him up in a heart beat. Does he no longer want to be with me? Does he think I am that mean, that he wants to stay with his daddy?
I don't know what I did to deserve this.
Without repeating myself, I don't know how to continue this blog I am so confused, in shock and in a deeply terrible emotional state.